I have warped senses in that I see things through my own perspectives, I smell things all foul and unpleasant, I reach out with all my might and yet fail to touch anyone, I choose to hear what I like to hear and I love the taste of bitterness in life. Sounds like your typical pessimistic whiner.
On the upside, at least I realize that I can't trust my senses. My brain interprets all these negative stuff when I bottom out but cleverly ignores all the good things I already have in life. I think I need a new brain. Oh wait, maybe I don't have one.
Come to think of it, I will need a new heart as well. All my 5 senses have been corrupted with all the bad stuff that is happening around me to the point that my heart has become calloused and hardened.
After all these years, I'm still trying to figure out who I am. Do I belong to the light or to the darkness? Will you tell me?